I love little things like this, I think they are just the cutest. If I had money, I would get one for my car...Maybe I'll just have to make Mikey get me one :)
2.05.2011
Take 2
This morning at about 7, Makayla was running a fever of 103. We took her back to the ER, where they proceeded to basically traumatize her. They wanted to check to see if she had a UTI. So to get a urine sample, they had to put a catheter on her...She screamed, I cried. Then, they wanted to check her for RSV. Again, she screamed, I cried. Both were negative. Um HELLO?? She was JUST here TWO NIGHTS AGO having surgery. Why not start with a freaking X Ray to make sure she doesn't have a second airsoft pellet they didn't catch the first time, or test her for things that are relevant to her condition. Idiots. My Mom and I were not amused. They finally did a chest X Raye, and there were no signs of a second pellet. The Doctor put her on antibiotics for Pneumonia. She doesn't have it, but that would obviously be a worst case scenario, and they want to make sure it doesn't develop into it.
My poor baby girl. She is almost 15 months, and has already had 8 ear infections, 10 stitches, and 2 surgeries. She is on a twice a day for 10 days medication right now, and has had SO MANY of those. She is always on some kind of medicine, whether its just Tylenol, or antibiotics. It makes me sick to my already-sick stomach knowing that she has had some kind of pain going on, basically her whole life. She is such a trooper, and is always happy and wanting to play, regardless of what is going on. I love her more than anything and she has been such an example to me. If she can deal with everything she has, then I will be okay as well.
My poor baby girl. She is almost 15 months, and has already had 8 ear infections, 10 stitches, and 2 surgeries. She is on a twice a day for 10 days medication right now, and has had SO MANY of those. She is always on some kind of medicine, whether its just Tylenol, or antibiotics. It makes me sick to my already-sick stomach knowing that she has had some kind of pain going on, basically her whole life. She is such a trooper, and is always happy and wanting to play, regardless of what is going on. I love her more than anything and she has been such an example to me. If she can deal with everything she has, then I will be okay as well.
2.04.2011
Tummy Ache...x1000
Tummy Ache...Part 1
Tuesday, Makayla and I went back to Layton for a few days. I wasn't feeling too good, but it was nothing serious. Wednesday night I went to bed at about 10:30, and had the worst stomach pains. EVER. My whole stomach was killing me, and I could not sleep. Every time I sat up or stood up, I would get nauseous and throw up. I tried taking a bath to see if that would help, and it didn't. The pain was so bad, I was afraid I wouldn't be able to get up with Makayla. I called my mom at 5:30 to tell her about my awful night, and she offered to come to Layton to help get me to Logan, so I could see a Doctor. But I needed my car in Logan as well, so she brought Matt with her, so he could dive my car home. Makayla woke up at about 9:15, just as my Mom was leaving Logan. I got her out of bed, and laid on her floor for an hour, until my Mom came. We got to Logan at about 1:45, and picked Taylor up from school so she could watch Makayla while my Mom took me to InstaCare. We got to InstaCare at about 2:15. I was running a fever of 103.5, and seriously felt like I was going to die. The pain wasn't as bad as it had been Wed. night, but it was still horrible. One hour later, the Doctor FINALLY came in. They had taken a urine sample, and something was in it that is an indication of Appendicitis. He then proceeded to press on my stomach, and it about killed me/made me want to punch him in the face. He sent us to the ER, so i could get an IV in, and get a CT scan. Doug came after the CT scan to give me a blessing, and shortly after that, Ann came to bring my Mom dinner. It was about 7 when I went into surgery. I remember being wheeled down the halls, but nothing after that. When I woke up (it was about the only sleep I had gotten in 20 hours), I asked the nurse what time it was, and it was 8:30. By 9:15, I was in my room for the night. I was fully awake by the time we reached my room. Taylor was in there, and I asked where Makayla was. Taylor responded with, Oh she's with mom and Tanner. I don't think much about it, until about 15 minutes later, when they hadn't come back. So I asked her where they were again. She goes, don't freak out, Makayla is fine.....but mom is downstairs in the ER with her....
Choked...Part 2
While I was at the Hospital with my Mom, Taylor and Tanner were home with Makayla and Matt was at work. Makayla was munching on some puffs, and starts choking. Taylor digs around in her mouth to see if anything is down there. She doesn't get anything out, and Makayla is still choking. Tanner called our Bishop (who lives right next door), who came right over. They tried calling Dr. Stevens, who lives in our ward. He didn't answer, but they went to his house to see if he was home. He was, and said that they should go the ER right away. So the Bishop takes them to the hospital. On their way over, He called my Mom to tell her what had happened, and that they would be at the ER shortly. Now my mom had been waiting for me to get out of surgery, but had to go downstairs to take care of Makayla. So she sent Taylor up to be there when I was brought in. She was a little hesitant at first, because if I saw Taylor, I would ask about Makayla. And Taylor was like, Nah, she'll be too out of it to even know whats going on. But, I was awake when I got to my room. Mikey came to see me at about 9:30, and he got there right before Makayla's surgeon came into talk to me about what was going on with her, and what needed to happen. Mikey had to sign the realise forms, because I had just woken up from being sedated. Mikey and Taylor went down with the Dr, so he could see her before he went to work. When the Doctor came back to talk to us after her surgery, he had the airsoft BB that had been lodged in part of her lung. Mikey was able to see her after the surgery, when she was out of recovery. We were both in Pediatrics, so it was nice that Mikey and my Mom could be back and forth without too much distance to go.
Together Again...Part 3
Mikey went to work at about 10:45, right after Makayla was brought out of recovery, and into her room. I FINALLY got to see her at about 1 am, when I was able to get unhooked from everything, so I could use the bathroom. I went into her room, and she reached for me, and it about made me cry...to see her hooked up to all the machines, and having an IV...it was awful...But she was okay, and she was going to be fine. My mom finally got her to sleep, and I felt okay going to sleep, knowing she was in good hands [literally!]. Mikey came to check on us at his 3:30 "lunch" break, and Makayla was up getting her temperature taken, so he was able to see her again. I went back to bed around 4, and was up for the day at 7. My Mom brought Makayla into see me, and we just sat and talked until about 7:15 when Mikey came back [he gets off work at 7]. My mom left, to go to her school and set up a sub for the day, and to run home to change. Makayla was so tired that she fell asleep on my bed, and that was one of the cutest things ever. She was holding my finger, and wouldn't let go. At about 9, her nurse came in to let me know that Makayla had been discharged, and was okay to head home whenever, but they were okay to help me with her if needed, since my mom still wasn't back. Shortly after that, my surgeon came in to check on me, and he said I was doing great, and could go home as well. We left the hospital at about 10:30, and I'm so glad I didn't have to be there much longer. Being hooked up to all the machines and my IV was super annoying, and I hated not being able to take care of Makayla. I do not feel like I've had surgery. My stomach only hurts if I cough, and other than that I am fine. I think its because I've had a baby, and no pain will ever compare to that. Plus, the stomach pain I had Wednesday night, was 10x worse than what my stomach felt like after surgery.
1.27.2011
A Song For Everything
So Small [Carrie Underwood]
What you got if you ain't got love?
The kind that you just wanna give away
It's okay to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out
And just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith
'Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And when you figure out
Love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small
It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big at the time
It's like a river that's so wide
It swallows you whole
While you're sitting around thinking 'bout what you can't change
And worrying about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, moving so fast
You better make it count 'cause you can't get it back
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, and when you figure out
Love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small!
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And then you figure out
Love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh, it sure makes everything else
Seem so small
It Happens [Sugarland]
Missed my alarm clock ringing
Woke up, telephone screaming
Boss man singing his same old song
Rolled in late about an hour
No cup of coffee, no shower
Walk of shame with two different shoes on
Now it is poor me, why me, oh me
Boring the same old worn out blah, blah story
There is no good explanation for it at all
Ain't no rhyme or reason
No complicated meaning
Ain't no need to over think it
Let go laughing
Life don't go quite like you planned it
We try so hard to understand it
Irrefutable, indisputable
The fact is psssh it happens
My trusty rusty had a flat
I borrowed my neighbor's Cadillac
I'll be right back
Going down to Wally World
That yellow light turned red too quickly
Knew that truck the moment it hit me
Out stepped my ex and his new girl
'Sorry 'bout your neck baby'
But it is poor me, why me, oh me
Boring the same old worn out blah, blah story
There is no good explanation for it at all
Ain't no rhyme or reason
No complicated meaning
Ain't no need to over think it
Let go laughing
Life don't go quite like you planned it
We try so hard to understand it
Irrefutable, indisputable
Fact is it happens
Ain't no rhyme or reason
No complicated meaning
Ain't no need to over think it
Let go laughing
Life don't go quite like you planned it
We try so hard to understand it
Irrefutable, indisputable
Fact is
Yeah, the irrefutable, indisputable
Absoluteable, totally beautiful
Fact is psssh it happens
These two songs fit my life to a T. So Small is what I'm dealing with right now. But It Happens, reminds me that there are just some things that I can't control, and to enjoy life, regardless of whats going on. A few months before Makayla was born, I was driving home from Mikey's, after a bad fight...And the song "I Saw God Today" by George Strait came on. I had never heard this song before, and I (of course...) burst into tears when I heard the last verse/chorus
"I've been to church
I've read the book
I know he's here
But I don't look
Near as often as I should
Yeah, I know I should
His fingerprints are everywhere
I just slowed down to stop and stare
Opened my eyes and man I swear
I saw God today
Got my face pressed up against the nursery glass
She's sleepin' like a rock
My name on her wrist
Wearin' tiny pink socks
She's got my nose, she's got her mama's eyes
My brand new baby girl
She's a miracle
I saw God today"
Mikey is funny when it comes to songs. He has a few songs of his own for me and Makayla. Our song has always been Then by Brad Paisley. Every time we hear the song, Mikey will hold my hand and sing along with the last part of the song.
"And now you're my whole life
now you're my whole world
I just can't believe the way I feel about you, girl
Like a river meets the sea,
stronger than it's ever been.
We've come so far since that day
And I thought I loved you then
I could just see you, with a baby on the way
And I could just see you, when your hair is turning gray
What I can't see is how I'm ever gonna love you more
But I've said that before
And now you're my whole life
now you're my whole world
I just can't believe the way I feel about you, girl
We'll look back someday, at this moment that we're in
And I'll look at you and say
And I thought I loved you then
And I thought I loved you then"
When it comes to Makayla he is just like any other father. He's got two songs for her:
My Little Girl [Tim Mcgraw]
"I remember I thought you looked like an angel
Wrapped in pink, so soft and warm
You've had me wrapped around your finger
Since the day you were born
You beautiful baby from the outside in
Chase your dreams but always know the road
That'll lead you home again
Go on, take on this whole world
But to me you know you'll always be, my little girl"
And:
Cleaning This Gun [Rodney Atkins]
The Declaration of Independence
Think I could tell you that first sentence
But then I’m lost
I can't begin to count the theories
I've had pounded in my head
That I forgot
I don't remember all that Spanish
Or the Gettysburg address
But there is one speech from high school
I'll never forget
Come on in boy sit on down
And tell me about yourself
So you like my daughter do you now?
Yeah we think she's something else
She's her daddy's girl
Her momma's world
She deserves respect
That’s what she'll get
Ain’t it son?
Hey y'all run along and have some fun
I'll see you when you get back
Bet I’ll be up all night
Still cleanin' this gun
Well now that I’m a father
I’m scared to death one day my daughter
Is gonna find
That teenage boy I used to be
That seems to have just one thing on his mind
She’s growin' up so fast
It won't be long before
I’ll have to put the fear of god into
Some kid at the door
Come on in boy sit on down
And tell me about yourself
So you like my daughter do you now?
Yeah we think she's something else
She's her daddy's girl
Her momma's world
She deserves respect
That’s what she'll get
Now ain't it son?
Y’all go out and have some fun
I'll see you when you get back
Probably be up all night
Still cleanin' this gun
Now it's all for show
Ain’t nobody gonna get hurt
It’s just a daddy thing
And hey, believe me, man it works
Come on in boy sit on down
And tell me about yourself
So you like my daughter do you now?
Yeah we think she's something else
She's her daddy's girl
Her momma's world
She deserves respect
That’s what she'll get
Now ain't it son?
Y’all run along and have a little fun
I'll see you when you get back
Probably be up all night
Still cleanin' this gun
Son, now y'all buckle up and have her back by te- let's say about nine...thirty.
Drive safe.
Music is inspiring. Its influential. And it's a big part of my life, and has really helped me through hard times, and also brought fun, laughter and memories into the good times.
What you got if you ain't got love?
The kind that you just wanna give away
It's okay to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out
And just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith
'Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And when you figure out
Love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small
It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big at the time
It's like a river that's so wide
It swallows you whole
While you're sitting around thinking 'bout what you can't change
And worrying about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, moving so fast
You better make it count 'cause you can't get it back
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, and when you figure out
Love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small!
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And then you figure out
Love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh, it sure makes everything else
Seem so small
It Happens [Sugarland]
Missed my alarm clock ringing
Woke up, telephone screaming
Boss man singing his same old song
Rolled in late about an hour
No cup of coffee, no shower
Walk of shame with two different shoes on
Now it is poor me, why me, oh me
Boring the same old worn out blah, blah story
There is no good explanation for it at all
Ain't no rhyme or reason
No complicated meaning
Ain't no need to over think it
Let go laughing
Life don't go quite like you planned it
We try so hard to understand it
Irrefutable, indisputable
The fact is psssh it happens
My trusty rusty had a flat
I borrowed my neighbor's Cadillac
I'll be right back
Going down to Wally World
That yellow light turned red too quickly
Knew that truck the moment it hit me
Out stepped my ex and his new girl
'Sorry 'bout your neck baby'
But it is poor me, why me, oh me
Boring the same old worn out blah, blah story
There is no good explanation for it at all
Ain't no rhyme or reason
No complicated meaning
Ain't no need to over think it
Let go laughing
Life don't go quite like you planned it
We try so hard to understand it
Irrefutable, indisputable
Fact is it happens
Ain't no rhyme or reason
No complicated meaning
Ain't no need to over think it
Let go laughing
Life don't go quite like you planned it
We try so hard to understand it
Irrefutable, indisputable
Fact is
Yeah, the irrefutable, indisputable
Absoluteable, totally beautiful
Fact is psssh it happens
These two songs fit my life to a T. So Small is what I'm dealing with right now. But It Happens, reminds me that there are just some things that I can't control, and to enjoy life, regardless of whats going on. A few months before Makayla was born, I was driving home from Mikey's, after a bad fight...And the song "I Saw God Today" by George Strait came on. I had never heard this song before, and I (of course...) burst into tears when I heard the last verse/chorus
"I've been to church
I've read the book
I know he's here
But I don't look
Near as often as I should
Yeah, I know I should
His fingerprints are everywhere
I just slowed down to stop and stare
Opened my eyes and man I swear
I saw God today
Got my face pressed up against the nursery glass
She's sleepin' like a rock
My name on her wrist
Wearin' tiny pink socks
She's got my nose, she's got her mama's eyes
My brand new baby girl
She's a miracle
I saw God today"
Mikey is funny when it comes to songs. He has a few songs of his own for me and Makayla. Our song has always been Then by Brad Paisley. Every time we hear the song, Mikey will hold my hand and sing along with the last part of the song.
"And now you're my whole life
now you're my whole world
I just can't believe the way I feel about you, girl
Like a river meets the sea,
stronger than it's ever been.
We've come so far since that day
And I thought I loved you then
I could just see you, with a baby on the way
And I could just see you, when your hair is turning gray
What I can't see is how I'm ever gonna love you more
But I've said that before
And now you're my whole life
now you're my whole world
I just can't believe the way I feel about you, girl
We'll look back someday, at this moment that we're in
And I'll look at you and say
And I thought I loved you then
And I thought I loved you then"
When it comes to Makayla he is just like any other father. He's got two songs for her:
My Little Girl [Tim Mcgraw]
"I remember I thought you looked like an angel
Wrapped in pink, so soft and warm
You've had me wrapped around your finger
Since the day you were born
You beautiful baby from the outside in
Chase your dreams but always know the road
That'll lead you home again
Go on, take on this whole world
But to me you know you'll always be, my little girl"
And:
Cleaning This Gun [Rodney Atkins]
The Declaration of Independence
Think I could tell you that first sentence
But then I’m lost
I can't begin to count the theories
I've had pounded in my head
That I forgot
I don't remember all that Spanish
Or the Gettysburg address
But there is one speech from high school
I'll never forget
Come on in boy sit on down
And tell me about yourself
So you like my daughter do you now?
Yeah we think she's something else
She's her daddy's girl
Her momma's world
She deserves respect
That’s what she'll get
Ain’t it son?
Hey y'all run along and have some fun
I'll see you when you get back
Bet I’ll be up all night
Still cleanin' this gun
Well now that I’m a father
I’m scared to death one day my daughter
Is gonna find
That teenage boy I used to be
That seems to have just one thing on his mind
She’s growin' up so fast
It won't be long before
I’ll have to put the fear of god into
Some kid at the door
Come on in boy sit on down
And tell me about yourself
So you like my daughter do you now?
Yeah we think she's something else
She's her daddy's girl
Her momma's world
She deserves respect
That’s what she'll get
Now ain't it son?
Y’all go out and have some fun
I'll see you when you get back
Probably be up all night
Still cleanin' this gun
Now it's all for show
Ain’t nobody gonna get hurt
It’s just a daddy thing
And hey, believe me, man it works
Come on in boy sit on down
And tell me about yourself
So you like my daughter do you now?
Yeah we think she's something else
She's her daddy's girl
Her momma's world
She deserves respect
That’s what she'll get
Now ain't it son?
Y’all run along and have a little fun
I'll see you when you get back
Probably be up all night
Still cleanin' this gun
Son, now y'all buckle up and have her back by te- let's say about nine...thirty.
Drive safe.
Music is inspiring. Its influential. And it's a big part of my life, and has really helped me through hard times, and also brought fun, laughter and memories into the good times.
1.21.2011
January
Why is it that January is always such a blah month? Maybe it's because nothing exciting happens? January has always been such a weird month for me. Most people see it as a new beginning, a fresh start. But the truth and reality of everything is that it's not. Nothing changes just because the year does. Bills don't disappear, rent is still due and jobs don't magically appear. I always wondered why it has been like this for me. I finally figured it out. Something is always happening during the year except for January. February is Valentines Day and a week later, my birthday. March is St. Patricks Day, and a hope of Springs arrival. April is Easter and Spring Break. May is the end of school [[well it was the end]], and the start of summer vacation. June is a blissful month of no worries, warm sun, friends and family. July is my FAVORITE (well 2nd favorite) month of the year. This month has the 4th of July [[My FAVORITE HOLIDAY]] and the 24th, which means a fun-filled week at Bear Lake, which is spent out in the sun, with a good book and Diet Coke. August brings [[well used to]] the start of fall and school. September is a full month of fall. beautiful leaves changing color, as the anticipations of winter gets closer and closer. October bring Halloween. This holiday is truly special. For the whole month, houses are decorated in hopes of scaring little ones, talk of costumes and parties is all the conversations kids have. All for ONE night. And it's not even one night. It's only a few hours, but still an epic holiday. November has become my favorite month of the year. Makayla's birthday is the 13th. That is something that will be celebrated more than any holiday. A few short weeks after the birthday celebrations, brings Thanksgiving. A time for food, family and fun. December is of course, Christmas. The celebration of our Saviors birth. For [most] kids its about presents and getting out of school. Its about seeing lots of family, and eating lots of food. Regardless of how you view the Christmas Season, it is still a celebrated holiday, and a large one at that. Then you get to January. AND NOTHING. Sure, New Years Day is January 1st. But no one celebrates. Everyone will have already celebrated the night before, December 31st, New Years Eve.
January is a depressing month for me. It always has been, and I'm sure it always will be. Unless I get married in Janury. Which wont happen because I don't want a winter wedding. I'm a summer girl. :)
January is a depressing month for me. It always has been, and I'm sure it always will be. Unless I get married in Janury. Which wont happen because I don't want a winter wedding. I'm a summer girl. :)
1.16.2011
Lilypie
I don't even know how I came across this...but if you go to http://lilypie.com/, they have a ticker or countdown for everything. From birthdays to pregnancy's, adoptions to memorials, weddings to anniversary's, even holidays and pets. Its so easy, and so cute! LOVE it!
1.03.2011
2011
December has come and gone, and I have yet to post about Christmas. That's because I only got a few pictures, and haven't felt much like blogging. But I will say that I am proud of myself. I actually kept my blog going this year, and now have a good record of Makayla's first year of life. Christmas was perfect. Makayla was spoiled, and had a blast opening presents. New Years eve was spent at Ann and Trace's, and I left a little early to get to Mikey's, and we rang in the new year together. Makayla got her stitches out today, and her foot has healed great. [[She FINALLY got a bath..after 8 days..]] We are headed home to Layton, where I am hoping to find a job, so I can start my 2011 of right. I didn't set goals for this new year, because I am HORRIBLE at things like that. I'm just keeping it simple. I need a job, and want to be able to support myself and my daughter. I honestly hope 2011 is better than 2010..cause if its not, I'll be screwed!
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